I’m back with weeks 2 & 3 of my Year in the Life 365 day photography project.
There’s been a bit of a bump in the road with this project. I took a few days off. I just couldn’t document the darkest days since my mom passed away. I know for certain she loved this project and keeping up with it, so I’m going to continue.
If you want to follow along with me in real time, feel free to check out my secondary Instagram account @theoriginaljaelan. That’s where I’m posting these 365 photos. I’m also using the hashtag #YITLJaelan if you want to follow that way.
Sometimes coffee is the only motivator that works. I’m usually a black coffee kind of girl, but lately I’ve been drinking a cold brew from Trader Joe’s with milk in 1:3 ratio. I steal a whiskey cube from the freezer, and drop it in a tall glass to keep the brew extra cold.
I just feel better when I work out early in the morning. Maybe it’s because my day starts off in a productive manner, or maybe it’s just the endorphins. Either way, I’m happy.
I’m working on taking better care of myself. I want to live an active, long life with a healthy body to get me through.
I don’t have any photographs of me and Bill together. I don’t think I’ll ever stop regretting that, because photos are so unbelievably important to me when it comes to memories. However, I do have this old record. I can’t tell you how many times Bill and I listened to it. It was his prized record – the first recording of the Fightin’ Texas Aggie Band ever sold – and now it’s mine.
It SNOWED! When I looked out the window, it looked like a fairytale. Clearly we aren’t jaded by the snow yet, because we were the only ones out playing in it.
We still had snow. Although we stayed in most of the day, we got out to play in the afternoon. I sent several photos to my mom and dad. My mom had taken to Teddy a lot lately, and said she missed her a lot.
Late, Dad called. Mom suffered a heart attack and passed away suddenly. My heart is broken. I don’t even know what to do. I’m lost.
This was the hardest day of my entire life. I got on a plane early and flew to Texas. Mom made chili and cornbread last night. There were a few pieces left, and I ate one. I’ll never get to eat anything she made ever again. My heart aches. I miss my mom.
My precious mom. It was so hard making arrangements. I don’t want this to be our reality. I miss my mom. Finding treasures like this mean so much to me.
I took a few days off. I didn’t want to remember much of the last several days, which maybe defeats the purpose of this 365 day project, but whatever. Things are dark right now. Things hurt. I made mom’s famous “toad in the hole” for breakfast.
I let myself just feel sad. I tended to my plants and took it easy. I am so thankful she taught me to love plants. That’s something I’ll carry with the rest of my life. I’m so thankful that I can look around and see evidence of her love for me.
Thanks for sticking with me for this 365 project. I know mom was proud of me for it, and I’m looking forward to continuing it – hopefully with brighter days ahead.